Sunday, October 12, 2008


Today was Fast Sunday in my branch. I was nearly to the podium on my way up to bear my testimony when I noticed two other women had stood up on either side of me near the front, but that I was first up because I was closest. Without even thinking, I raised both my hands in the air to celebrate my "victory". Does that mean I've overly competitive? People either thought it was funny or that I'm a jerk.

Last week, I was at a lunch with some very lovely ladies and we started talking about some interesting stuff...abortion, politics, etc. I automatically talked first nearly every time an issue came up. It's like I'm incapable of shutting up. Have you ever had that experience? I can't tell you how many times I've had fun at some social gathering and then come home and thought of all the dumb things I said or did. Then I want to become a hermit and never speak to people again. In this instance, I didn't say anything I thought was stupid or would've taken back if given the opportunity--I just talked too much and didn't listen enough. I think often of a line from Anne of Green Gables. I'll paraphrase: Anne is discussing the issue of her verbosity when she says that if people knew how much she wanted to say, but didn't, they'd give her a little more credit. I feel that way a lot. (This is why I love people who are big talkers; then I don't seem to bad by comparison and there's an even give and take in a conversation. =) )

I wonder what it would be like to be one of those people whose vices are hidden to the world... Mine are so painfully obvious.


Dianna said...

Wow. I'm so glad other people feel that way! Now I don't feel like such a jerk for always feeling like I monopolize the conversation. It makes me wonder how many other people feel like that... Haha, I don't know if it helps, but I never thought you were out of line or spoke too much...

GrowingRopers said...

i love that you love anne too! i refer to you as my "boosom buddy" when talking about you :) truly :) i love you jennie!!! :) and if your testimony meeting is anything like ours often is you deserved a victory "waa-ho" for making it up to the podium before everyone beat you! :) take a victory lap baby! :)